Holding..

It's really hard holding it in...
I really just wanna give up right now. I feel like all my emotions are bottled up inside and there's no way to release it.

Day 9: Don't fail now...

I went to the classroom today like usual. Nothing different.
I sat down and pushed him away like usual(at least to me).
A few minutes later...he said, "Ohh...I know! Your period is coming isn't it??"
Me: I don't know. What makes you think that?
Him: You're acting strange...
Me: I'm acting like how I usually act.
Him: No...I sense something different.
Then, a few hours later...I started getting menstrual cramps. By afternoon, my period came. =_= He was like.. " I was right! See! "
My mood was fluctuating like crazy later after I got home.
Everything just pissed me off.. like the floor my slipper got stuck to this sticky mess on the floor that someone left. I was soooo pissed i was like CURSE WHOEVER MADE THIS MESS!!!!!!!!!!! I think even if I wasn't on it, I would be pretty pissed. I had to go get another pair of slippers to wear even after cleaning it.
I was kinda close to tear..but forced it back in! Yes! I have not failed yet.

Day 6: My Fated number

Today is just like any other day. No drama. No tears.
There is one big thing. Test. And I think I did pretty bad.
I'm just a bad test taker. The moment I see the problems, I just forget everything. Let's not even go there. So depressing...

We were so wasted after the test we treated ourselves to Daikokuya. I couldn't resist ordering Takoyaki because I haven't had those in forever! It's so expensive though! $4.XX for 5 pieces. We ordered regular size noodles, which is huge. I couldnt' finish it since I ate 3 takoyakis. My appetite isn't as crazy as before because physics class is draining my soul and energy and all that.

We worked on lab at my house. I had to clean out my whole room today. So exhausting... I had to clean out my room for my uncle and aunt to sleep in for their one night stay. Everything vacuumed. Dust wiped.

When I watered the plants today. I noticed the water lily was closed very nicely. I remembered the other sunny day it was open(so pretty). I looked it up and found out that water lilys open around 9am and close around 4pm. So coool!!! Wonders of nature. It's like water lilies have bed times like we do.

Day 4: No drop

Definitely a day I don't feel like crying at all....
So basically I got a D on my test.. but failing tests don't give me tears :/
Okay gotta go to bed now.. it's like 1am....

Day 3: Hangin' On

I won't be posting everday since my class is so hectic.
I'll be posting every other day or so...
Yesterday(Day 2), no tears.
Today... almost!!
I held it in!! Good job to me!
We got in a fight. And I tend to cry when I get really mad.
I was close, but I fought against them(tears) !
UGH!!MAKES ME SO MAD!! he f**kn hung up on me!!
you know what I hate the most????!?! People hanging up on me ! I'm saying bye to myself!!!!
FFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!
I think we both have faults, but he thinks it's all my fault by sarcastically saying it's all his fault. He's obviously blaming everything on me!!
FKAJWPEORUAPWERUAEWIUFFAUCKFUCKDUFAKUDFK
I won't be signing on tilll 11, that's for sure... I need the time to cool off...
He's probably telling his mom what happened already by now...since she will be able to sense his anger...and will be asking...
Then, he's gonna make me sound soo badd.....his mom won't like me as much anymore .
That's great. I won't ever want to go to his house now...
When he brought me home today, the moment I got off the car..the second I got off, he already sped off....geeez FFFFRRRRRR
I guess we'll sort things out tonight....but who knows how mad he is...
I guess this is a good thing for me because I concentrate better on hw and lab when I'm in this kind of mood.
Just thinking about it makes me SO FFFKN MAD, I'm gonna do lab now.

30-Day Challenge: Day 1

So I'm going to do another 30 Day Challenge. This time, it's not shedding a single tear in all 30 days. And take note, my period hasn't come yet, so it will be a challenge. I guess I'll start today. I need this to make myself stronger. This world is unfair, screwed up. Of course, with the dark side, there is always a beautiful side of this world, which includes many beautiful and breathtaking places I need to visit, and fun things to try like skydiving. I need to toughen up myself to take on all the challenges this world has for me. I think crying is a way of giving in and losing. So this will be a good start for me. Usually, it's peopl's words that make me cry, not much of the physical pain. Well, good luck to me, who always cries. Haha.

Now, back to physics.

Thanks to my dad for the Mango Mochi

Yesterday afternoon..
I just came out of the bathroom. My dad yelled from the kitchen,
"Where's the Mochi I got? You hid it??"
"I. bought it! And yes I hid it."
"Where? Oh never mind. I found it." *Evil Laugh*
Noooooooo~~~~~~~~
"Geez I just want ONE. I'll buy you another one tomorrow."
"Buy the MANGO mochi!!"
"No..I'm going to buy green tea!"
"WHY? Why not mango??"

Bento~

It's been a while. I am finally motivated to blog, thanks to the bento I made today.
I decided to show off my not-so-good-looking bento.
I've actually been pretty busy with school lately.
He was looking forward to my cooking XD.. not much of a disappointment I guess..he didn't say much, he was just happy I cooked something.. he even showed it off by taking it out of the bag so it's visible to the class(the cover was super transparent), which was kind of embarassing for me.
My grandma saw it this morning and she thought it was really Japanese style and was like woww so pretty. But it's not that pretty in my standards..
I woke up early just to prepare this..

Enough of that and let's take a look at the food~~